From 0 to 60 in just a few hours!?
I feel like an old car that won’t start on the first try. It takes me a few hours to get in the mood to do something. I know I have to take my time, and I do. It’s just weird to take so long to finally decide to do something.
Yesterday morning I decided to get some groceries to bake muffins and a cake. I left the house at three in the afternoon. It was cold, -25, but there was no wind, so it was ok. When I came back, it took me about an hour before I started baking. I made one batch of muffins and the cake. I also made chicken pot pie for dinner.
It felt good to be busy. Everything, once I started, just flowed. After the muffins, I rinsed the bol and started on the cake. The muffins came out and the cake went in. I prepared the stuffing for the pie and let it simmer on the stove. I made the crust right before it went into the oven for about forty minutes.
After dinner, I prepared the sink for the dishes, the neighbor didn’t come yet to install the dish washer. I ended up “being ready” to do the dishes at eleven. I didn’t do them all, my bed was calling me.
I’m happy to be back to a normal sleeping pattern. And I usually wake up around seven. Even if I feel tired during the day, I usually just end up resting in bed, not sleeping. Usually half an hour is enough for me to get back up and feel awake again.
So hopefully the time between the “want” and the “do” will get shorter and shorter. I’m not really pushing myself, I still have about five to six weeks still. So I’ll just stand by and observe the changes.
I’m still trying to coax my self to quit smoking like it did the drinking. I’m still off the stuff. I don’t miss it. I don’t feel a need, no craving, nothing.
My room is less of a mess. It’s still not the cleanest room, but it’s getting there. I think it’s all related. The more confident I’ll be, the more I’ll do, the cleaner my room will be. I know it’s slow, but I see and feel the changes happening every week.
I just hope my operation next week won’t put a dent in the process of getting better.
Have fun!?
J
Would I !? 