Does push come to shove?!
I could feel it Wednesday. It rolled in like the fog. Half an hour later I felt nervous. With every move I made I could feel the shakes of weakness. I knew what it was, but I didn’t want to believe. Everything was going great. Why now?! What happened?!
I went to bed with the intent of fixing, whatever was ailing me, in my sleep. It didn’t work. I woke up and spent the day with the blues. I was a zombie again. Moving slowly. Not being able to do anything. Just being was an effort onto itself. I again decided to go to bed with the strong intent on fixing whatever it was.
I woke up ok this morning. I guess it past. I hope whatever it was that it’s fixed, and not just pushed aside.
Don’t get me wrong, I know I’ll have ups and downs. What I’m wondering is, should I just grin and bare it when it happens or can I ask of myself to fix it as soon as possible?! By concentrating on fixing it, am I just getting rid of it or really fixing it. I guess I should be patient and give it a few more days next time.
In a way I do believe that every down time is me going through something and dealing with it. I refuse to believe that it would just be idle time. I’m just trying to be as positive as possible. What do you think?!
Have fun!?
J
Would I !? 
alas these things do indeed come on sudden like a sudden stormy day when there was a period of clear.
it is very frustrating as one hopes it is DONE.
Most times it’s best simply to weather the storm as it will pass,only making a few nasty lost days and some sorrow.
hang in there.
February 23, 2007 at 10:18 am
You can do it bubbas! Big warm bear hug going out too you!
February 23, 2007 at 4:54 pm
you know, it’s funny, but a lot of us are down the last day or two. Phase of the moon? We’re all a bit “luney”?
Hope you’re picking up soon!
February 23, 2007 at 9:32 pm
I don’t know, Joel. I just lumber through the day and try not to think about it. It is not fun but it is better than sleeping your life away – I think.
February 26, 2007 at 4:58 am