Guess who woke me up?!
Tuesday of last week, around midnight. I had just fallen asleep. I hear Pascal opening the front door. I hear a guy’s voice. Figured it was a friend of his but I also thought it was a bit late for a visit. The guy was loud. Then I could hear a second voice and heavy foot steps. I couldn’t understand why he wasn’t telling them to be quiet, that I was asleep. The footsteps got closer to my room. I opened my eyes to see a fireman in the living room. What the?
The gas company had changed the outside connection the previous day. It was rusted and dangerous they said. Tuesday night another guy came to light the pilot lites. While he was in the basement, he shook the pipes pretty hard. He lit the pilots and left. We found out that by shaking the pipes, he damaged the connection. We had a leak.
The firemen stayed till one, the gas guy stayed till almost four. We had to keep every windows and doors open to let the gas escape.
I saw the shrink twice since I last posted. I’ve reduced my Effexor of two doses since. Last week I felt congested, a side effect of coming off the meds. It used to only last a day, but last week it lasted about five days. This time, it seems to be ok.
She told me something I didn’t know.
Effexor is an antidepressant only up to a certain dosage. This affects the serotonin in your system. After it affects other areas. And when you take a higher dose, like 225 or 300mg it actually affects the dopamine. It becomes a stimulant. Not something you want when suffering from panic and anxiety.
So I’m now at 150mg. She wants to take me off of them. That way she’ll have a better understanding of what is really affecting me. As for the Remeron, she says it actually calms, and usually makes people drowsy. That’s why they suggest taking it before going to bed. She wants to take me off of those too.
I think it’s working. I feel more alive, more awake. Not hyper or wired. Just good. I made dinner last night, and did the dishes. I think I’m on the right track.
I also told her about my plan to fix a schedule. She thought it was a great idea. So because I wasn’t putting my plan into action, she prescribed it to me. She gave me a prescription of my schedule to do every day. I know it’s only been two days, but because she said I had to, I do it.
I still have more to tell you, I’ll keep some for tomorrow.
Have fun!?
J
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