Remember these?!
Temperatures have been pretty cool lately. So I wasn’t sure. But the humidity has returned since yesterday and it’s adding about ten degrees, I’m fine. No more big sweats. No more rivers running down my face, neck and no more wet T-shirts. Now I sweat because of exercise or because I’m hot. I guess the fact that the meds are back to an antidepressant level makes all the difference. It’s not affecting the adrenaline anymore. This alone makes it great.
I feel stronger and have more energy with every passing day.
I saw my psychiatrist on Tuesday. We lowered the meds again. I’m at 112.5 and should stay there for a while. I’ll also keep the other one, for now. She was happy when I told her I had lost four pounds in a week.
I went to see the behavior specialist. He asked me how I wanted to go about dealing with my attacks, the more physical way, recreating the sensations and learning to deal with them, or the relaxing method to let them wash over me. I told him the first method.
Tell me if you agree with my reasoning, no where can I learn how to deal with the attack symptoms but I can take a yoga class to learn how to relax, I can get a massage, acupuncture. So I wanted to learn what can not be taught in a class or a relaxing CD or DVD. Does that make sense?
He surprised me by telling me I probably won’t go back to work till December. So with that in mind, I’m starting school on Wednesday. (Sandra, don’t tell anyone) He approved. He prefers I be active then inactive. It will also show us if the attacks will come up under different circumstances, different stress.
So as you can see, a lot is going on and pretty fast at that. I’m still adjusting to the medication. It’ll be weird to get back into a schedule. To go back to school after so many years. I’m not afraid, I’m excited.
Have fun!?
J
Would I !? 