Mistake?!
I think I’m making a big mistake going to school right now. I don’t know if it’s nerves, lack of confidence or what. I just feel like it’s too much too soon. I feel like I’m going crazy. I’ve prevented about five panic attacks tonight.
I feel like I’m just starting to feel like myself, more normal. Since last week, I feel overwhelmed. Like a car spinning out of control.
I really don’t know.
Would I !? 
my comment got deleted
i wrote to hang in there/give it a try/it is usual to have panic upon upping the ante of life.
September 4, 2007 at 8:24 pm
What? You’ve got to be kidding me. You’ve been in counseling, adjusting the level of your meds, making giant steps forward. Plus, just a few days ago school was awesome, great and it was getting you moving and out of the house. And now this? Not a chance, man…..You’ve gotta keep it up. You need it. The education, the consistency, the schedule and using your head. We all do. Keep it up!
September 5, 2007 at 1:59 pm
Just hang in there. I think you can handle this. You deserve to get your life going and making positive steps towards getting it going will pay off in the end.
Good luck!! You’ll do well!
September 5, 2007 at 3:28 pm
I share the previous opinions and pieces of advice from Lewis and John Michael, dear Joel! It is a step forward for you indeed. You cannot back up everytime you feel insecure. That’s also part of the whole process. It may be sometimes hard (or seem to be…), but I do believe you need it, dear friend!
And you know by heart my opinion about learning: it’s most important and helps us all very much!
Hugs! 🙂
September 6, 2007 at 1:50 pm