Boo!?

 Even if the picture doesn’t reflect my post, I just had to put it up. She is just too cute.

I know that my last post might have looked like I was giving up. Urspo got it right.

You have to remember that I’ve not felt really good for that long. I’m also putting a plan into action of an idea that even when I wasn’t sick, I couldn’t bring myself to put into motion. I had absolutely no confidence in myself. Since I’ve been sick, forget about it. It’s ten times worst. I always second guess myself.

And let’s say I hadn’t decided to go to school, I still wouldn’t have gone to work right away. And when I did, it would be gradually. Not all day, every  day just like that.

Also, I’m doing this on no money. I did ask the government for a student loan, still no news.

So that moment of hesitation, was a normal reaction for someone in my position.

Now what happened the next day is where I do allow you to give me a big kick in the pants if you don’t like what you read.

I went to school and everything was fine. We had a very big day today. We were busy in the fields all day. The weather was really hot, humid, I think I’m going to wake up with sun burn on my face.

Still want to kick me?

I had to cancel my psychologist appointment tonight. No money. No refunds came back from the insurance yet. And I still need to get some stuff for school.

But am I giving up? No!?

All the comments after urspo, I only read them after school yesterday. Thank you guys. I appreciate it. And they made me laugh. But like I said. I think it’s normal to have a bit of doubt now and then.

I’m goin’ to bed. I’m beat, and I have school tomorrow.

Have fun!?

J