Week 4!?
After my routine on Monday morning, I was on my way to school. I was nervous. What if I don’t make it? Will I give up? I could screw up. What then? I got my answer ten minutes after class started. If I hadn’t reread myself, I would have had a perfect score. I got 18/20. It was our first test and I passed! I reread my answers, and changed the right answer for a wrong one. It’s ok. I know what my mistake was. I can tell you that having that score boosted my ego. I felt great.
Oh yeah, my panic, anxiety and agoraphobia were no where to be found this week. I felt fantastic. No extra sweats in the subway. Nothing. Just a pretty normal life this week. It feels great.
We had another test, I got 11/20. It’s ok. One of my mistakes was reading the question wrong. I would have gotten 15/20. But even with a low score, I’m in the average of the class. The teacher said it was a hard exam. So I did ok next to my other teammates. Not that it’s ok to just be average, but I feel better knowing we’re all in the same boat.
I love our group. Everybody supports each other. One girl had zero, and we all supported her and offered to help.
God it’s good to be “normal” again.
Have fun!?
J
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