Week 4!?
After my routine on Monday morning, I was on my way to school. I was nervous. What if I don’t make it? Will I give up? I could screw up. What then? I got my answer ten minutes after class started. If I hadn’t reread myself, I would have had a perfect score. I got 18/20. It was our first test and I passed! I reread my answers, and changed the right answer for a wrong one. It’s ok. I know what my mistake was. I can tell you that having that score boosted my ego. I felt great.
Oh yeah, my panic, anxiety and agoraphobia were no where to be found this week. I felt fantastic. No extra sweats in the subway. Nothing. Just a pretty normal life this week. It feels great.
We had another test, I got 11/20. It’s ok. One of my mistakes was reading the question wrong. I would have gotten 15/20. But even with a low score, I’m in the average of the class. The teacher said it was a hard exam. So I did ok next to my other teammates. Not that it’s ok to just be average, but I feel better knowing we’re all in the same boat.
I love our group. Everybody supports each other. One girl had zero, and we all supported her and offered to help.
God it’s good to be “normal” again.
Have fun!?
J
Would I !? 
You’ve always been normal!!
Congrats on doing well on your test!! Keep it up buddy!
September 22, 2007 at 2:03 pm
Always good (but not surprising) to hear that you are doing well in school. Keep us posted.
September 22, 2007 at 4:24 pm
yes it is
i hope it last a long while; panic tends to be intermittent so don’t fret the breakthroughs.
September 23, 2007 at 8:40 pm
I just ADORED reading this post, dear Joel! You are on the right path indeed! From now on you’ll have many more weeks like this one, as long as you hold on to that positive attitude towards what you’re doing and rediscovering day by day.
I wish you all the best, dear friend! You do deserve it!
Oh and that photo is absolutely exquisite!
Hugs! 🙂
September 23, 2007 at 10:18 pm